Unbreakable

You have to stay in your zone as you attempt what you feel is the impossible. I mean, there is a mental battle that goes on when you are making a life shift and no matter what happens you have to stay the course. You can't get off course because someone upset you or something did not go right. When losing weight and trying to achieve your fitness goals you have to be unbreakable. In my mind this always means, keep pushing, equip yourself with the mindset of an athlete. Lately I have had a lot of stressors in my life and I have refused to stop allowing things get me off track. That means, a lot of positive self talk and that means no excuses. That means, getting off my tail and getting my body in motion, for thirty minutes a day, preparing my meals or at least eating out healthywise. I recently have taken stock over the past six months that I am an emotional eater so instead of eating I try to do something not related to food. Also, i work out in different ways. If I truly want to be Fit For Life, I must have the mindset of a person who works out rain, sleet, snow; maybe i don't feel good or maybe i'm stressed but walking, running, and moving my body will be the focus! So when your life tank gets low, try to push through by grunting, getting your hands dirty and doing the hard work. No one said this would be easy. Grab a hold of your spirit and hang in there!

Why I don't do the scale anymore

Do you really need a reminder that you need to lose weight now? Every day you get up, that you feel the extra pounds on your back, backside, thighs, and arms, you know you need to do something about it. Everyday you try to walk up stairs or lift a box of things in your home, you know emphatically you need to lose those pounds? Back in January, I insisted on torturing myself with the scale. I would weigh myself more than once a day. This is before I figured out .... this is a little obsessive, even for me, so I eventually stopped getting on the scale. One day my scale broke and I was so upset. I think that was a sign I needed to really stop this crazy action. Instead, when I stopped weighing myself on the darn thing, I began to focus on how I was feeling, how my clothes fit, and just taking care of my body more. I joined a gym, and said I would go work out. Instead what happened is that I began to use netflix for a lot of exercise videos. In the beginning it was hard for me to do the cardio videos since I hadn't moved my body in a while. But I made myself do that and a bunch of Leslie Sansone Walk At Home videos, which helped me a lot...

But back to the scale. I think in this country we are very obsessed with a certain or particular weight. For me, I don't care as much as I used to. I want to be a healthier and leaner me, no doubt about it. I don't want to focus on a number. I know what size I need -- a right size ME -- whatever number that is me and God will commune on it. For the moment, I'm a size 18. I will be happy when I get down in the 190's and get a little more leaner.

What did the scale prevent me from doing? Just enjoying the process of working out and seeing new miracles in the mirror when I wake up. It's not about a number, and small successes are great I'm wearing tops and outfits I haven't wore in years and that's my start.

Happy day to you!

Burger Addiction!

This is getting pretty ridiculous! I tried to wean myself off of the McDouble Burger which is my shameless burger addiction. I mean, I can cook a mean and lean turger burger which I haven't done in a while so you know that means every now and again, I go ahead and see the McDee's sign and then I start smelling the burger and I have to have one. This is ridiculous. I tried to go to burger rehab (which I was eating tofu with veggies, or tofu burgers, and eating vegan burgers) but there is a taste of a burger that you can't quite replace. So today, I didn't eat my breakfast (first time in months) and I was sooo hungry after 2 meetings. Had a small burger with fries and I felt soo bad!

However, I did better late in the day when I drank water, ate a protein bar, and a decent dinner. Skipped my 3o Day Shred workout will do in the morning!!!

Oh well, I guess I'm just twisted when it comes to burgers. Every now and again, it's okay to indulge. At least I didn't go over board -- and I didn't mess up the rest of my day with bad choices. I guess that's what it is all about.

It's normal to want certain things....

Whoa is me!

The Struggle Is Inside

My battle is mines alone... the struggle is inside. If it was just trying to lose the weight, that would be fine, however I have to dig deep inside to make sure that the issues which brought me to this weight are resolved, otherwise the hard work I'm doing now will be undone by one situation or other life stressor. I am an emotional eater. Mostly hate the fact I have allowed myself to get so far off track but you know what? Each day is an opportunity to continue to fight -- my fitness battle won't be easy but I can do it. It's every day at a time. In my mind, I have to change old ways and deal with stressors by not allowing food to be the prize every time I get stressed, or not feel good. Instead, these days I pick up my weights, resistance bands, or slide in a fitness dvd. No matter who you are if you don't address the inside battle, the outside won't be won for long! I'd be damn if I don't be the cataylst for change in my own life. It is up to me to do this and no one else. No one's fault. I see a long journey ahead but so far I'm hanging in there and I suggest you do the same! Have a healthy and fitful day!